unplugged

If there even are any faithful blog readers left out there, here is my story, uncut, unplugged . . . what I have been going through the past few months since I disappeared from blogger world. I have shared this story before and yet I realized it was too soon. Now I am sharing it because I have shared almost everything on here. And especially because I am a wedding photographer, it is crucially important to me that my clients and friends know that I believe in a love that truly lasts til death do you part.

My husband and I are divorcing.

I show up to photograph weddings feeling undeniably guilty . . . like, what is my right being here when I am in the process of a divorce? Does the couple think I am going to photograph their ceremony thinking, oh, whatever! It is very important to me to say here, absolutely, positively, not. I am not going to give personal details of my situation because it is a very personal situation that doesn't deserve to be tossed around the internet like a salad, but I have put myself out there from day one on this blog. There was a time when blogging was practically my everything . . . as much of a priority as eating. Which I love to do. But since this situation, and not quite knowing what to post about personally without giving away too much information, I put it up on its proverbial shelf and am now ready to take it down, dust it off, and move on.

I believe in love like no other. I watch my couples and my heart turns to a puddle I have to step through so not to get wet and look sloppy while taking their photographs. I feel such excitement for them, and hope. I typically develop wonderful friendships with my brides, where I tell them what I am going through and they support me and love me and hug me and I know even more they are the right person for me to photograph the love they have for their groom.

I don't want to say too much except that I truly do believe love is a choice. It is also a choice that shouldn't be too difficult when you have chosen the right person to spend your life with. I have absolutely no regrets - life is a journey that is to be taken one day at a time, that is to be treasured, and most importantly, spent with the ones who lift you up, make you want to be a better person, and who you truly enjoy your days with. I believe every single decision we make as humans has taken us to this moment, right here, right now, whether we are sad, desperate and lonely, or fulfilled and content with our choices.

My very favorite quote of course comes from some silly refridgerator magnet I read at my sister's house. Everything is going to be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end.

Thank you to everyone for their love, support and friendship. Disclaimer: Mean comments will be deleted because mean people suck.